I’ve been writing my blog for almost a year and a half now which I can’t quite believe. I’ve always been sceptical about revealing who I really am online therefore I’ve never shared my name or what I look like. I’ve decided that I want that to change.
I’ve always wanted my blog to be somewhere that I can talk about my life experiences and talk about things that interest me, I wanted to write these things as someone else, someone who wasn’t me, I wanted to feel comfortable when publishing a post, knowing that people I know won’t see it. I don’t know why that is but I wanted to have my own little corner on the internet where I could talk openly about things without anyone I know in real life reading it. That’s one of the reasons I’ve never revealed my real name on here, I thought if I revealed my name it would be easier for those people to find my blog. For the past year that I’ve been blogging no one I knew in real life has come across my blog (not that I know of anyway) but in the past couple of weeks that has changed and I’m not sure how I feel about it but hey ho there’s nothing I can do about that now is there.
This has opened my eyes and made me realise that you can’t keep things a secret online, I know want to share who I really am because I think it’s the best thing for me to do and I’m hoping I won’t regret this.
I think I need to embrace my blog and not feel embarrassed that people who know me have found it, I’m proud of my blog and I’m happy that I can share my experiences of living with disabilities by hopefully helping others and raising awareness by doing so.
I want my blog to become something that is more personal to me, I want to put my own stamp on it, by no means am I saying that my blog isn’t personal already, because it is but I feel that the fact that I haven’t revealed who I really am on here is holding me back.
I don’t want to be held back by the fact that I don’t reveal my name, I know it might not seem like a big deal to you but for me it is.
When people have asked me what my name is I’ve explained that I don’t reveal my real name online and I’ve said that my name is Elle, not everyone knows that but that’s the name I’ve given when asked that question. You might be thinking why I’ve had this change of heart and to be completely honest with you I can’t explain why because I don’t fully know myself.
I’ve decided that I want people to know who ‘My blurred world’ is. I want to talk and interact with my readers/followers/online friends as me not ‘My blurred world’ or ‘Elle’.
Some of you might have found my name because Holly did mention it in her meeting my best friend post last week and I approved of that because I didn’t want to be known as ‘My Blurred World’ in a post that was a very personal one.
I’ve shared many other personal detail with you all such as my age and you all know that I’m very open about my disabilities. It’s time that you can put a name to that girl who talks about her visual impairment, who rambles on about beauty products that she loves and who posts random tweets. It’s time you find out who I really am.
My name is Elin, I am 18 years old as you may or may not know. I live in the UK (Wales to be exact). And there you go, you now know.
Now that you all know my real name I feel like I can interact with you all on a much more personal level. I know I’m making this seem like I’ve just revealed a huge secret but for me this is big. I never thought I’d feel comfortable revealing my real name online and I don’t know why but I think I’ll feel much better for it. I can now sign off my posts with my real name instead of saying ‘join me next time in My Blurred World’ which I was never happy saying.
I believe that this is a step in the right direction for me and my blog, I instantly feel like I can now make my blog even more personal which I’m very excited about.
So that me, little ol’ Elin that was behind ‘My blurred world’ all this time.